It’s Valentines Day. And although I don’t have a romantic valentine to share this special day with again this year - it's a beautiful winter day, the sun is shining and I have so much to smile about!
Today, I feel so much love and abundance all around me, and I have all of you to thank for that. To all of you who have sent me notes, or commented on my posts, thank you for your love I appreciate you so much.
If you are reading this blogpost, you are likely my Mom, my sister, one of my beloved friends, or a member of my incredible community that brings so much joy and love into my world. Thank you all - you know who you are and I love you!
I am compelled to write this blogpost to share the wonderful introspective journey that I have been on since my last blogpost in mid-January.
Over the past month I have spent more time alone than any other time in my life.
Going into the last shut down in mid-January, I wrote a very raw blogpost sharing some of my fears, trepidations, and life questions that I was contemplating. And based on the
number of people that reached out to me following that post, I know that I am not alone in this thinking.
Since that time, I took myself through a powerful visualization process which I call
THE FREEDOM PROJECT, and it has been a transformational tool to help me let go of what no longer serves me, and clarify and visualize all that I want to create for myself, my children and the world. It's the most powerful gift that I have given myself in years and it likely wouldn't have happened if I hadn't been LOCKED DOWN. How crazy is that?
Although there are many times that I feel lonely, this time has inspired me to go deep within my own being and explore who I AM. This time has revealed the darkness and the light. I’ve had to confront traumas, grief, lost love, and other sadness. And, at this time, I am also deeply aware of the collective fear and loneliness that so many people are experiencing on this planet right now and I feel deeply for all who are suffering.
Through much introspection, I realize that it is important to remember that we are not alone, and that its ok to reach out when you are suffering. And, that It's ok to not be ok.
I have used so many tools that are available to me to help move through pain and suffering in life, but I find that meditation, yoga, exercise, reading, self-inquiry, counselling, reiki, massage, journaling, sharing feelings with friends and family, high-vibe food, and self care all work brilliantly for me. That, and a good glass of bubbly with good quality chocolate or a dozen East Coast oysters!
Thankfully, I am blessed with many people that I can reach out to for support and this means the world to me. It has given me the strength in tough times - and helped me remember who I AM. And finally at the age of 54, I have come to a place where I truly LOVE who I AM and I realize how much value I bring the world. Every. Single Day.
But it takes work, and I do the work.
For me, this lockdown has been a gift. It has been a truly humbling experience in so many ways. Most importantly, I have used this time to focus on my boys, my work, making beautiful, healthy, locally-sourced food, clearing clutter and beautifying my home, online training, connecting with colleagues and friends via zoom, and lots of fun outdoor adventuring in my own backyard.
By going within, I have built up enormous creative energy and have discovered a renewed sense of freedom and vitality. And as the sun rises every day, and I sit still in a sunbeam with my face to the rising sun, I drink in the energy - feeling the vitality in my body and my soul. I breathe in life. I breathe in joy, abundance and love. I focus on all that I am and all that I want to create in this world.
I focus on how much I love myself, my life, my people, and all of my crazy adventures.
Wishing all of you a magical Valentine's Day!
You are beautiful, you are loved.